A Will is a Dead Giveaway

So why the Cozy Mystery Series? With all this new found time on my hands I did what I always do - set out to learn. I quickly found I had the attention span of a gold fish. After eagerly signing up for several online courses I found my ability to pay attention and learn was at an all time low. It was then that I realized I should stop signing up for courses until my head was in the right space and ready to receive the information. 

What to do with my time? Nothing was holding my interest. Not even my "go to" favourite, gaming. With a reading list over 20 books long, none of which I found interesting, I picked up a cozy mystery from the library. Surprisingly this was easy reading and seemed to click with me. I began reading several books a week.

I have noticed a theme with the cozy mysteries that I was enjoying the most. The main character is a single (divorced, widowed, jilted) female who has recently had some major unexpected life event causing her to leave her big city/ executive job and relocate to small town USA/ UK. In small town where ever she opens a book store/ tea shop/ coffee shop and lives the life of her dreams...with the exception of always coming across a dead body.

I know I gravitate towards these types of mysteries because the main character is doing what I want to do. The piece that is missing from these stories is all the upset, turmoil, self-doubt and loss that happens from the time of her unexpected life changing event to her relocation in small town no where. In addition where is confusion and fear of leaving her executive/ corporate job to become an entrepreneur?   

I am curious to understand what type of support the main character received during this transition. In most books she also leaves her friends and family behind in the big city and has to start over in small town no where. I have the opportunity to build myself the life of my dreams and with this I am overwhelmed by all of the potential avenues I am able to explore. So much so that without support I am drowning in the answers to the question - What do I want to do when I grow up?

Right now I am struggling with the lack of support. I spend most of my days reaching out to people only to feel like a I have become a huge bother and nuisance. Everyone is beyond busy and the last thing I want to be is another problem. Then there are those who have told me that they will stay away until I contact them - they have made it clear that they don't want to upset me by asking if I have found a job. This got me thinking - perhaps no one knows how to support me, or what kind of support I need. 

I am comfortable being in my own company and I enjoy being alone. Having said that it has been a long time since I have felt like this. I am not sure exactly what this feeling is, so I will call it isolated. I have all these ideas, thoughts, plans and opportunities and no one to share them with. All I need is for someone to listen. Perhaps this is why the main characters in the cozy mysteries tend to be agitated and worried all the time - there is no constructive outlet for brainstorming ideas.

Peace